In retrospect, I have let tomorrow be the victim of my laziness. Fatigue became my default motivation towards my sluggishness. Lethargy was a stubborn overcast that would not dissipate.
Eight weeks have passed since the day I officially walked away. I have a list of tasks awaiting to be accomplished with external deadlines. In the course of time, I have learned not to be disgruntled by necessary evil - just do it and get it out of the way. The sweetness of immediate action is to prevent bricks of thoughts from ramping up that prevent me from crossing the finishing line.
I am most proud of a personal spa agenda which I started to indulge diligently for the last 8 weeks. I realized that I have become skin-deep. I was estranged from my skin and body care products. They looked immaculate in a chest of drawers when I was packing my personal stuff away. My eyes were illuminated. Remorsefulness overwhelmed me. I have done myself a disservice through procrastination. It was not about vanity and beauty. It was despising my lackadaisical approach that "I will use it tomorrow", just because I surrendered to sheer fatigue at every moment. I live today in hope of tomorrow. My body goes through the motion of the day but my mind thinks about the hope(s) of the future. The superfluous pursuit in purchasing and hoarding the purchases revealed an entrenched habit that trespasses sensibility.
My own realization of the vulnerability of tomorrow spurs me to keep moving forward now. Just like a ripened fruit does not cling to the vine, I must let go of past errors or anyone else's. Every moment has to be lived as if it is the last. Rejuvenate the positive and stop fighting the negative. It is paramount to capture life fully and live authentically. I am blessed that my tomorrow came in time for me to reconnect to my body essentials. It is a simple and effortless application with gradual recovery.
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