Walking Away

The first two weeks of August passed outside my comfort zone. I made work my life and stayed within the familiarity of my external surroundings, the regular type of conversations with colleagues, and the habitual type of interactions with customers, and the predictable type of communications with civil servants.  Executing such tasks is not difficult, as they become an embedded daily routine. 

I decided to walk away abruptly from it all. That is the only way to go considering the circumstances I have been put through.  It was my choice to make a quick exit. I was persuaded to reconsider my decision, and even to make a smooth transition with many lucrative offers.  But this time, there was no compromise. I listened to what they had to say but did not allow any of them to sway me from my firm decision.  This time, it is all about me.  I made it that way.  However, I was perturbed by one remark received - "I am ESCAPING".

I pondered about this verb thrown in  my face.  I deliberated as to how I handled myself in such situations when I had to make unlikeable decisions. At the same time, I was also enlightened by the misrepresentation made by the other person, who obviously had done a hear-say analysis.  How could he know more than what I had to go through?  And how could he feel and know my reality?

My unlikeable decision benefited me in its entirety. It was a manifestation of years of tolerance and patience with my toxic environment.  To the person who believed I was escaping, he knew so little.  I am only a very tiny part of the vast universe. When the time came to act, the universe helped me boundlessly.  It cleared away the gravestones and let me walk away steadily with dignity. 

My deep self-respect prohibits me from prolonging my sufferings, and wasting my time in meaningless activities and "zombifying" me. I want to live life with meaningful pursuits which will empower me to become a better human being.  To know that it is achievable, makes nothing impossible, for I am possible!